Friday, May 15, 2009

Help

You have used 756 out of your net daily budget of 1370 calories and have 614 calories remaining. 15% of the calories are from fat, 29% from protein, 56% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

This is what Calorie King has said to me for the last couple of days. When I don't eat many carbs (I mean bread, rice, pasta, chocolate, lollies, biscuits etc) and don't drink alcohol or too much caffeine, I physically cannot eat - I have to force myself to eat things, cos I don't get hungry. The trouble is - as soon as I eat something I shouldn't be eating, I get out of control and it's back to eating everything in site. What's worse? Eating 1000 cals a day and losing 500 gms a day (at the moment, I know it will lessen quite quickly and soon) or eating like a pig and putting on a few kilos every year?

I love not feeling hungry. But I hate having a net of 600 cals left over at the end of the day and thinking maybe i'm doing the wrong thing. If i'm not hungry, i'm not hungry, right?

Help......

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Day 5

Weigh in day is Friday - cos it is!


83.3 this morning - yay me.

I know a lot of this will be fluid but if I can keep this up I will be very happy.
I'm very proud of myself.  I've been so strong.

10 kilos to go til I get to my lowest weight.

No-one ever says this is easy, in fact its very very tough, plus i'm going through some other stuff right now too that isn't helping.  But i'm hanging in there, and that's the main thing.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Day 3

Day three of no carbs - bloating has gone - lethargy has gone - caffeine withdrawal headache has nearly gone - need to remember how good this feels when the carbs are calling my name!

On track

I love being motivated and strong, it's the best feeling. You have to take advantage of it while it's around and kick it's arse.

I'm doing that.

We had a birthday at work today, I had to go and buy fancy cakes (can highly recommend Croissant D'or for anyone travelling to Canberra and needing cake! It's on West Row in Civic). So I chose and purchased said cakes, and took them back to the office, set the table, called everyone to afternoon tea and sat and ate my yoghurt and drank my water - and felt very smug!

Someone actually said they admired my willpower - well I don't normally have it so when it's around I have to make full use of it.

But that did make me feel much better.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Accountability

I need accountability - i'm going back to using Calorie King each day and watching my calorie intake etc.  


I have spent some of this morning putting all of my CK data into a spreadsheet (from 2006 til now).  I started out in March 2006 at 78 kilos, gosh I wish I was there now!

Lowest weight in the last three years 73.3 - highest is today's (85.5).
I've gained (net) 7.5 kilos in three years (not too bad, could have been worse) but I need to fix it.
When I get back to 73.3 i'll then decide where i'm going from there.  I've been there before, I have the data to prove it!

Wish me luck kiddies .....

FFS

Rightio, enough piss arsing around. It's time to get serious.

I'm sick of being fat, tired and bloated.

I'll be back with a plan sometime over the next week, watch out world - this woman is on a mission to fit back into her wardrobe! (Literally).

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Happy Easter

I'm in Melbourne. I love Melbourne, mostly because of the great people I know who live here! You know who you are! and the food, i've never had a bad meal in Melbourne. Shark Fin Inn here I come!!

I've walked around the Albert Park Lake twice in two days! Woo hoo. Yesterday I went at lunchtime and there were a heap of people out with their personal trainers - with those elastic bands tied around trees and fighting against them, people boxing, running up hills, doing those push ups that you do with your arms while you're squatting (whatever THEY are called - not anything I like doing! haha). There were also (obviously) a lot of walkers and even more joggers. I have always wanted to be able to jog or run, but after watching these people i'm not so sure. None of them are smiling, none of them look like they're enjoying themselves, and all of them look like they're in pain!!

People's running styles are so different, i've never noticed that before. One guy I was watching chucked his left leg out every time he stepped on his right foot, it was hilarious. Other people shrink down, some run sideways, other people have one shoulder dropped, it was fascinating!! It's awesome to see someone who looks comfortable when they are running, it's so smooth and looks so easy, they are few and far between though!

Today i'm meeting Jodie - we've been internet buddies for 5 years but we've never met in person. I'm so excited. I hope I don't say anything stupid. Meeting people from the internet is like meeting superstars, you know so much about them but when you meet them you're gob smacked! haha I'm sure we'll be fine though. I've bought some champagne!
Jodie is cooking a special dish for us today. I love it when people cook for me, and especially if it's something new, I can't wait.

Mark is working in Melbourne over Easter and I came down rather than sitting at home on my own. Lachie is with his Dad til Monday and then he's dropping him at my Mum's for next week.
I miss him so much, but i'm getting lots of reading done. I'm onto the third Twighlight book now, they are interesting. Has anyone else read them?

I'm flying back to Canberra on Tuesday morning and going straight to work - bah, at least it's a short week. Mark won't be back til Thursday, same day Lachie comes back - so i'll have a couple of nights on my own. Our new house is SO big compared to my tiny house i've lived in for the last twelve months. It has a great view over the suburb below at nighttime - I have always wanted to live in a house where you have a great view. I must try and take some photos and post them.

Happy Easter!

Happy

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Life is busy, i'm sorry I haven't updated for a while.


Things are going so well with Mark and I that we've decided to move in together.  We have found a gorgeous house in the same suburb i'm in now (close to grandma for childcare continuance!).  We move in on the 1st of April.

I can't wait to start our new life together.  

I can honestly say that before I met Mark, I had NEVER been in love before.  I had no idea I could feel so strongly about someone (children aside).  It's amazing and I hope this feeling never goes away.  In fact I doubt it will because it just gets stronger every day.

As for my weight, it continues to stay the same - I really need to hunker down and get serious, but it will happen.  I'm not pressuring myself into a corner with it, I have way too much on my plate at the moment to even contemplate putting that kind of stress on myself.

I haven't read any blogs for a few weeks now so I hope you're all ok.  


Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Fate

I believe in fate. Sometimes things happen for a reason.
You can't stop it, it's meant to be.
Something really really wonderful is happening in my life.
I don't want to jinx myself, so i'm not going to say too much.

I am happier than i've been in a very long time.
I'm laughing and smiling all the time.

I love my life right now.

No prizes for guessing what's going on but i'll give you more information in a couple of weeks.

In the meantime if you're looking for the happiest person on the planet - here I am !!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Bad bad bad bad bad

Yesterday my weight was 82.7, today it was 84.4.

How can that be?

Why do I now feel so depressed that I just want to eat everything in sight.

I want to get back to 78 like I was before Christmas, this is spiralling out of control. I didn't eat that much yesterday, it was too hot, and I worked in the garden for an hour an a half in the 35 degree heat and sweated like a pig.

What is going on ?????????????????

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Uh oh

Fallen off the wagon, giving myself til the end of my holiday to get over myself, then it will be serious. I need to stop letting myself eat crap whenever I like.

I've stopped taking (under medical supervision) my anti-depressants and that has taken me a while. I've had enough excuses though, I don't need them anymore, my life is ok.

The scales are still at 82 ish so not too much damage done.

I really want to concentrate on getting back to 75kg and then i'll worry about what to do next.

I did buy a skipping rope, but it's been too damn hot to start. High 30's every day (that's celcius) and today at work we had no air conditioning, bleuch. It's still 30 degrees as I type this and I have to lock the house up to go to bed shortly.

The weather is driving me mad, bring back the snow I say!!

I'll be back at some stage with my half thought up plan for post holiday survival.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Motivation, where are you?

I really need to get organised, i've lost my motivation for good eating.
My house is spotless though, I thoroughly cleaned everything yesterday (my Mum was visiting).
So I feel good about that.

Had a loss of 0.5 this week, which i'm very happy about. I've gone back to parking at the furthest away car park from work so that I have to walk a lot further.

I'll be better this week.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Day three of project Hourglass

It's too hot to exercise, tomorrow will be 11 degrees cooler than today, how can that happen?  It's such a huge difference.  I will be back to parking my car far away and walking 30 mins a day tomorrow - at the moment i'm being a bit lazy and parking closer - I hate sweating!!


Yesterday I went out for lunch with my sister, we had a  nice Chicken tandoori and salad wrap (no chips) and I had a Chai Latte Freezaccino - OMG - it's the best thing i've ever tasted in my life - well, maybe the best thing i've tasted all week!!  Not sure how many calories are in one - but I didn't care at the time - it was a boiling hot day, the drink was cold - that's it in a nutshell really.


Monday, January 5, 2009

Day two of project Hourglass

I did ok yesterday til I got home.  I had a turkey and lettuce sandwich for dinner, it was too hot to eat, then I remembered there was ice cream in the freezer.  So, did I pick the 97% fat free one?  NO - I finished the white chocolate and raspberry ice cream - goodness knows how many calories in that one, but it's gone now and I won't be buying any more!  There was only a weenie bit left anyway.


Day two is off to a good start.
It's meant to get to 37 degrees today.  Blah.  I hate the heat.  I also hate showing my arms, but despite this fact I am wearing a singlet to work today, it's too hot for anything else and i'm past caring what people think about my fat arms etc, there are a lot worse than me walking among us!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Staying anonymous

I'm trying to stay anonymous, not sure if it will work.  New year, new blog.


Clean slate, starting again.

I should have an hourglass figure, but i'm a bit of an apple at the moment.  I need to get rid of my belly, don't need to lose as much weight as "they" say I should.  I'd be quite happy with getting to 70 kilos, so that is where i'm starting.  I had lost 4, but put three back on at Christmas time.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life... 


Testing Testing

First post, just to test if this works!

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