Organised

Right - i've done a healthy shop - seriously healthy.

I'm going to use up my slim shakes for breakfast and lunch this week at work, but i'm also going to have healthy snacks in between and meat and veg or meat and salad for dinner.
I want to kick 5 kilos by Christmas and then another 5 by June next year.

Totally do-able, just need to stop areseing around and DO IT.

I'm going to give myself one night a week off - where I can have whatever I want for dinner. Let's see how that goes.

Step one

Didn't get any groceries done on the weekend, so no "plan" in place for me.

I really need to get organised food wise, it makes life so much easier.

I made a list, just got lazy and didn't go to the shops.

I feel better this week though, I haven't been snacking as much at work and cooking my own meals at home, even if I haven't been shopping, is so much healthier than what I was eating before.

The plan is to be under 80kg by December and then next year i'll start my 80 to 70 marathon!

10 kilos in a year, should be very do-able - as long as I have a plan.

I'm back, not sure how long for though.

I have some very big decisions to make in the near future, and I have to sit down and work out what is worthwhile, and what is baggage and have a big cull. Physically AND mentally, I need to make a plan, decide what I want and where I want to be, and work at it. I need goals, not just feathery dreams - solid goals - so I need to start at the very beginning - with a pen and a very large piece of paper!

I need motivation, inspiration, dedication and grit.

I need to work out what my priorities are, and get started with sorting out my life.

First of all, I need to get rid of all the crap in my house, then the crap in my life (some of that has moved on - all on it's own - which has saved me some time!!).

I need to look after me first, it's what everyone else seems to do. I need to start feeling good about myself again and not letting the negativity and neediness of others affect me. Lately i've been in contact with some very needy and negative people, and i'm over it. I'm sure i've been one of these people in the past (maybe you're nodding your head at this) but I don't like it, I can't always see it, but I don't like it anyway.

Time for change.

Time to formulate a plan.

Time for Project Me......

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Help

You have used 756 out of your net daily budget of 1370 calories and have 614 calories remaining. 15% of the calories are from fat, 29% from protein, 56% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

This is what Calorie King has said to me for the last couple of days. When I don't eat many carbs (I mean bread, rice, pasta, chocolate, lollies, biscuits etc) and don't drink alcohol or too much caffeine, I physically cannot eat - I have to force myself to eat things, cos I don't get hungry. The trouble is - as soon as I eat something I shouldn't be eating, I get out of control and it's back to eating everything in site. What's worse? Eating 1000 cals a day and losing 500 gms a day (at the moment, I know it will lessen quite quickly and soon) or eating like a pig and putting on a few kilos every year?

I love not feeling hungry. But I hate having a net of 600 cals left over at the end of the day and thinking maybe i'm doing the wrong thing. If i'm not hungry, i'm not hungry, right?

Help......

Day 5

Weigh in day is Friday - cos it is!

83.3 this morning - yay me.

I know a lot of this will be fluid but if I can keep this up I will be very happy.

I'm very proud of myself.  I've been so strong.

10 kilos to go til I get to my lowest weight.

No-one ever says this is easy, in fact its very very tough, plus i'm going through some other stuff right now too that isn't helping.  But i'm hanging in there, and that's the main thing.

Day 3

Day three of no carbs - bloating has gone - lethargy has gone - caffeine withdrawal headache has nearly gone - need to remember how good this feels when the carbs are calling my name!